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Showing posts with label nonsense. Show all posts
Showing posts with label nonsense. Show all posts

Monday, January 2, 2012

Notecard Nonsense


Thinking about the past, because it's easier.
The future is too big. Undefined. Perplexing.

skewed sense of perception
on one too many levels.

Maybe one day I'll wonder where the time went. 
Until then I'll just sit here and wonder how it can best be spent 

 Too hard on herself.                   
even though she claims to know the truth, 
she still thinks perfection is possible.  


Its not just background noise.

Wishes she had lived in the 1930s 
so that she could have grown up with her great grandmother,
her last words: “That girl has no hips to hold that baby.”
If only her grandmother could see what she's
become these days.

Tries her best every day,
Even when she’s strained.
And they hold her high up for that.
So high, she’s scared to fall.

 

Still remembers the day he told her dandelions are weeds. But to her they're still beautiful little flowers...


  
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 Dreams are for the undetermined.
Wishing is for fairy tale characters
Hoping is for the weak.
Those who wake up willing to engage
in their experiences and to take risks,
They will achieve the empty dreams
wishes and hopes of others.  

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Every Time A Bell Rings...

...an angel gets his wings. 


Inspiration from It's a Wonderful Life.

Baby, it's cold outside. I don't feel like moving from this deep sleep. 
Baby, it's cold outside. I need you close to me. 


She lights a candle and puts on that slow record,
the one that lulls her into sweet dreams. The moment pulls along,
like the long drag of a cigarette; like honey dripping off a spoon. 
She cracks the window and sits on the sill; she tucks her legs up to her chest. 
It's snowing outside. The moon's casting shadows across her bedroom floor.
That lonely bedroom. That lonely moon. 
Lasso it. She wishes she could lasso the moon. 
She wishes she could find someone willing
to make dreams like that come true--
wishes she could find someone worth wishing for. 
The snow sparkles on her sill like shattered panes of glass.
If only she could pull the moon down from its high palace. Then she'd have someone
to spend the night with--someone to whisper her dreams to
in the dark, black night. 

Where do those dreams go, into the darkness?
Into the night sky?
Out into the storm, to get mixed in with the snowflakes
and built into an igloo in some child's front lawn? 
I hope so. I hope they make their way in a world as
cold as this one. I hope they make it long enough
to see the ground thaw and the spring bloom. 
I hope they make it.

She wants moonbeams to shoot out of her skin. 
She wants to dance until the sun rises and makes the hillside pink. 
She wants to live in a perpetual dream, in which the record never
stops spinning and her feet never tire and her dance partner never tires.
She wants to look at her flower and watch it multiply into a garden. She wants to be 
foolish enough to believe, fully, that the real world can mesh with her dreams.
She wants beauty. She wants to be made of moonbeams.


Dream a little dream for me, 
for  all's fair in love,
isn't that what they say?
That's why she lights up
like a firefly,
that'd look so pretty in a jar on a bedstand or
on a printed postcard--
That's why she shys away
like a secret--
when you're around.

For, all's fair in love.
Her taken heart jumps just thinking
of walking with you.
All's fair in love. All's fair in love. All's fair in love
and war. Well, I don't know about war.






Baby, it's cold outside. Won't you climb in next to me?
Won't you catch that moon, ring that bell, sing that tune?
And take these fallen petals and tuck them away, for
they'll be worth something, someday. 
Let me have your vacant ear, 
let me whisper my childish dream,
though I know you'll never hear,
Baby, it's cold out, hold me close, hold me near.



 

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Notecard Nonsense

Because I cannot focus on a night like this, after a particularly demanding week, I've taken out a stack of old note cards and have been shifting through for the past...who knows how many  minutes.
Not wanting to shake up                                    Something to hide?
this particular board

  Always like this, but why?
You there. Me there. Different theres.
Spare me. 



The were on the same page,
just in different books.


 My feet have never been colder. Legs never more like jello.
When you're alone, there's no pretending.
       Only being.    And that in itself is beautiful.



                                          So disillusioned to think that beauty like that could survive.



Elliptical motion. 
Looking out on the gym from across the street.
Cat Stevens. 
Got off that damned machine
and started to breathe again.


BUT 
all these things
these pieces
they don't define her.
she doesn't let them.
Even if
they are truly
parts of who
she is.
She's in control
she writes the
book.
She defines the words,
the elements,
they don't define her.





Retreating to some more writing now. Something longer. Something more sustainable than tidbits of thoughts. Power bar like thoughts get me through the afternoon, but it's about time for a dinner-sized piece, don't you think?
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